I was at this wedding, some relative of dad's, it was okay but Gary kept wanting me to dance with him, he's such a dork. Anyway I suddenly see this guy staring at me and he's got this chicken bone hanging out of his mouth - I mean can you believe….. but actually he looked kinda cute.

Well we snuck away from Gary into the church, and boy was this guy bold, I mean smooth as and all the right lines. I was sure he was going to kiss me but just then Gary arrived and Tiyane (oh yeah that's his name) had to hide behind the alter, kind of sacrilegious I guess. Well that was that and I thought I'd never see him again but next thing you know he appears at school. I mean I go to a convent school in a pretty posh suburb and heres this downtown guy rockin in, I don't know how he got past the guards.

I don't know what it is but there is just something between us. I mean we come from completely different worlds, and I mean completely. He's poor, I'm rich, he's black, I'm coloured, we don't have any of the same friends, we don't hang out at the same places, but you know when I'm with him I don't care. He's a bit too full on though. I had a really bad experience with some guys a few years ago, I was drunk, I was stupid and I really don't want to go into it here but you know I just want to take it slow. Make sure I really know him and like him and really sure I want to be with him.

Of course Tiyane thinks taking it slow means I don't want to see him, guys are so stupid sometimes. Anyway again I thought that was it but next thing I know he's on my doorstep. My mother is soo embarrassing. Of course she'd much prefer I went out with dork-face Gary "so much more suitable dear" I mean Hello. Tiyane is so funny and quick and sweet and pretty damn cute as well. I always thought our differences didn't matter, if we're meant to be together then we'll make it work.

Anyway you know, it was great. We were hanging out, I got to meet his family, I was so happy and I thought maybe he's the one. I know, I know it was early days but we were just so good together. But then the ratfink, low-down, no good so and so broke my heart. Any I mean seriously broke it. I found out he'd lied to me all along. Well maybe not exactly lying, but lying by omission. He'd had this thing with this girl Linda, and okay it was before he met me, but the thing was she got pregnant and had his baby. I mean how could he not tell me something so major? I mean I thought that was one of the great things about our relationship, that we were honest with each other, I trusted him.

How I get to know about it is so bad, I go to his house and there is his mother with this baby and she has to tell me it's Tiyane's son. She's crying, I'm crying, the baby starts crying. I don't' think I've ever felt pain like that in my life; I just wanted to throw up. The thing is he's a cute baby but I don't want to start a life with Tiyane looking after some other woman's son. I wanted our life together to start clean and bright. Like the future was ours and we were making it happen together. Now it's just a whole big mess and I just don't think I can cope with that. I don't know what will happen but I just don't want to see Tiyane for a while.