I'd always known Tiyane, we lived in the same neighbourhood, hung out with the same friends, same school, you know how it goes. Anyway for some reason I just started to get this crush on him. But you know I was pretty sure he was flirting with me too. Skido was pulling girls all over the place but Tiyane never did, I really liked that. So that meant when it finally happened that I thought he must be serious. I mean I know we didn't plan it or anything and maybe if he hadn't had to miss the match in Bulawayo, and maybe if I hadn't got wet it wouldn't have happened. I guess I can "what if" all I like but it did happen and it was great. Well it was great and it wasn't great, it was like, I was so excited to be kissing Tiyane and it felt great but then I didn't really know how to stop and it kind of hurt a bit and it was over pretty quickly. That side of it wasn't so good, and I didn't even think about the fact that we didn't use a condom. I mean it was both our first times you know, so who's thinking about stuff like that. I was just so happy to finally be with him.

But boy, Men! Next day, he didn't want to know, it was as if nothing had even happened. In fact it was worse, he was avoiding me so we weren't even friends any more. I just do not understand guys. He got it fixated in his head that I wanted to marry him or something. I mean come on, take those points off yourself Tiyane, I want to get a job, have a life not just be Mrs Tiyane Tsumba. I also don't understand why guys can't be honest, I asked him straight up if there was someone else and he said no. Of course I found out later there was, I mean how hard is it to tell the truth?

You know I never thought you could get pregnant first time. I was so scared. Tiyane didn't even believe me, that guy is such a dog. I couldn't tell my mother or my aunties, I just didn't know what to do. Finally some girls told me how to try and get rid of it, I was petrified and maybe it was the wrong thing to do but I'm only 17 - how am I supposed to look after a baby, and I don't want to I mean jeeze, that's it, life over. Anyway I tried and it didn't work. It was horrible; I've never felt so much pain in my life. The doctor said I could have died, if Tiyane hadn't stopped by and found me I probably would have.

It is so unfair, I get expelled and nothing happens to Tiyane. I get sent away to the village to have my baby and it's horrible, everyone bosses me around and treats me like crap, and giving birth! If anyone ever tells you it doesn't hurt, they're lying.

So I loved my baby once he came, I mean who couldn't they're so small and cute and everything, but they cry, and cry and cry. Anyway I came back home to mum and I met Obert. I'm not crazy about him like I was about Tiyane, but look where that got me, and I'm different now. Obert loves me and he wants to marry me but only after I've finished school. But I can't do that with a baby, and Obert is not so keen on supporting another man's child. I guess I never told you but my father deserted us when I was small and mum and I are pretty poor so there is no money to pay someone to look after a baby - plus pay school fees? Hell No!

So I thought blow it, he's Tiyane's baby too, why shouldn't he take some responsibility? So I left the baby on his doorstep. He was furious, came storming round, but why should it be all my job, why should I be the one poor, and alone and afraid and coping with everything while he just goes on with his wonderful life as if nothing had happened. It took two of us and Renaldo is half his baby too. Girls always get the raw deal and it shouldn't be that way. Maybe I'll go back for my baby when I've got a job and can pay someone to help look after him but for now it's Tiyane's turn.